A Morning

It was around 5 am, rubbing my eyes I tried to lift myself up. My mind felt like a beaker full of distilled water, occupied but still empty, high on water potential but with no ions to channel the electricity. My left arm felt numb, maybe it was because I was inclined towards right. With quite a struggle, I stood on my feet. I can still feel the pain in my ankle that became my companion about three and a half months ago. But I was standing. After a long time of procrastination I was finally able to wake up at 5 am. Well practically, I think I didn't sleep the entire night! 

I progressed towards the sink, hit my face with a few splashes of water. Having an encounter with water reminded me of distilled water and for a few microseconds I felt a little grief about ions, but I soon helped myself. "It's not the time to grieve, it's the time to reinforce yourself, it's the time that you mould your ferrous soul into a weapon and quench it with the distilled water in the forge of your dreams. 

With a little hope and an armour against disappointment I opened the door and set my foot out in the tranquility of morning. It was the time when sun has not kissed the sky yet and birds have not accompanied the winds on the highest stage for their dance. With my heavy eyes I stared into the tranquility. But those heavy eyes are now nothing more than a bell of bicycle amidst traffic. The beauty of morning was so divine and so pure that I forgot the weight of my eyes, the numbness of my arm and the bitter companion of my leg. 

I moved forward in the deserted streets. Some canines could be seen hiding behind a snoring face, the ones which sometimes gives me shivers, but it was until I passed them. Soon the blanket of lethargy began to slip away and in the tranquility of these early hours my mind started to feel reaction as quanta of thoughts started a photoelectric effect and I can feel the electricity back in my mind. 

But still there was something missing, something important. LASER!!

I need to filter my thoughts into a monochromatic beam. It's the most important aspect for which I have to struggle. And the struggle will be long as I know that, it's the hardest part and I have failed miserably at it each and every time since the equation of my life became like y = -mx + c.

So what now! How should I overcome this problem? After deep introspection I thought that it's a problem for later and I finished my morning walk.

Can the readers suggest me anything?

Dreaming in daylight

From the window , through the panes the rays of sun are falling on my notebook while I am writing this about the thoughts that are flowing in the impulses of my brain . I use to think when I am free . I think about my life , about the country , about my friends , sometimes about my enemies too like how to take revenge on them how to embarrass them but then I remember  about the quote of Mahatma Gandhi " An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind " . Anyways the rays of sunlight were falling on my notebook and illuminating the complete page . Simultaneously the silhouette of my pen and my arm are formed on the table . The sunlight was scattered on the page and the latter was completely covered in golden color . Fortunately I use notebooks made not of perfectly white pages but of buff yellow color as they are recycled pages and are cheap . If it was a white page I couldn't have enjoyed the scene so much but due to this particular color bathed in sunlight I felt like I was on the grasslands . The meadow seems to be a perfect place to wonder and relax . Actually to be honest I was in the psychology class and due to above described circumstances and nothing to do my head was becoming heavy and drowsy . Well I was sitting at an angle of approximately 25 - 27 degrees to my teacher and I definately didn't wanted to get caught sleeping so to divert my mind I started to give shape to my thought in form of words . Well this was also not an easy task because my teacher was moving sideways and her motion served as a repeated interruptions in my observation and hence affected my imagination and delayed the description . The sunlight falls as a beam which is not straight as there were obstacles in its path . Do not peep into my copy ! , I told my friend , it's not complete yet . Actually it's not complete till now because the lecture was over . 

Consistency in Inconsistency

The only thing which is consistent in this world is inconsistency .

Once I was riding back home from my coaching class . I used to attend classes for competitive exams , although they weren't proved any useful . This is my first blog so may not be a perfect one but I will try my best . Now I ask you to imagine a situation where you are on a bicycle with too many speed breakers [ actually pits ] on your way with water filled in some of them and heavy traffic . Most of the people who lives in a developing country are well aware of the situation but for those with a silver spoon in their mouth [ it's just a phrase not a slang , I don't mean it ] I would like to elaborate . I was in a situation where I had the clearance of less than half feet between me and other vehicles on almost all four directions . My ear drums were on the verge of bursting as the noise of the horns blaring from a large number of vehicles collectively were beyond endurance . I was like in some sort of war . Paddle then brake, then again accelerate from nearly zero , then gain velocity , overtake and dodge , mind fully focused on the path , adrenaline rushing , pupils dilated finding a way through and when I have a proper momentum and a consistent pace then suddenly someone comes in the middle and I have to apply brakes and then start again .

For the ones of the developing nations who had skipped my elaboration , should scroll back and read it . You see it was a nice way of explaining the first line .
We wish for a consistent and stable life but neither is possible . There is no point in being sad about it . It’s my personal experience that’s speaking . So you saw how I lost my momentum and became inconsistent . You can experience the same scenario but the condition is that you should have a bicycle and traffic on road . This was just one scenario .

More are yet to come so keep reading .